WhatTheMell

I honestly haven't a clue what has happened to me. I'm so dissapointed in myself due to the lack of self motivation, creativity, and just general work. I find myself finding the time to make art work, take photos, make drawings, but then when said time is found there is no push to go create that piece. No new pieces have been made. Nothing has been made. You would think being in this deep, soul hugging emotion we call love would inspire me to do so much, but yet nothing. Some ideas are there, just floating on an ocean that is surrounded by nothing. I cant believe it has come to this, yes i find myself in love, with an emotional connection so deep it consumes my entire world but love is all i can think of. I find my days wanting to be with him, all day, everyday. I find myself wanting to do nothing but consuming his time with activities couples do. It saddens me to think that the only creativeness that has played out was through the Halloween period where I was confronted with the task of painting faces for some friends (I say friends but they were mere acquaintance's.)  Oh sweet art that i call my passion, i know not what to do. I really know not. I feel like I'm torturing myself with this lack of motivation for what was my former love of art. Art seems to be a mere spec on my windscreen now compared to what other things I have that worry me. This probably has made no sense whatsoever. I honestly still have my doubts about people actually reading these things but if you do and have something to say could you please share it seen as I am actually going mad with my lack of passion for something I claim to be so passionate about. I need help. I need advice. I need wisdom. I need my art back just as much as I have to accept that its no longer my first love, but will always be my love. 

Snapchat-  meryemtahsin 

I finally bucked my ideas up and got an iPhone soo who wants to add me on snapchat? I need more arty and inspirational people! So add me, meryemtahsin ! Look forward to seeing what you have In store for me

I haven't really been around and i would like to apologise for that. its so frustrating when you have no inspiration, no drive, no push, for something you love.. i love art, i love my art, (big headed much), but if its something you love doing why dont you just do it and not worry about inspiration.. but then the work itself becomes disgusting. if not inspired then the work lacks meaning. do you not think? or am i just making all this up because one, i am rather very much so bored out of my nut, two, infatuated in said boredem....   

Just made a facebok page wher i think i might be posting from now on! there are a few photos on there that i havent posted on here, so please, check it out!

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Please and thank you!!!